Hurt and pain

I was talking to my boyfriend
and then I started
crying about everything
I started telling him
it was all my fault
I'm sorry
he said it was okay
and told me to relax
he asked me what I thought
was my fault
so I told him
that it was my fault
I was born
that it was my fault
my dad was sick
Just everything that could have
possibly went wrong in the world
went wrong because of me
It's all my fault
he said "no it's not"
"that stuff just happens"
I walked into my bathroom
so I could look in the mirror
and pick out some good qualities
but I didn't find any
so I opened up the
medicine cabinet
to see a razor blade
sitting on the shelf
I picked it up
and I started
slicing up my arm
He started freaking out
'Cause he didn't know what
to think or do
the last thing he had on
his mind became the first
because he never once
thought his girlfriend
would become suicidal
now all he has is hurt and pain
inside and out