Aborted part 2 measage to son

Hay you up there can you still hear me, do you still see me?
If I could go back I would but I can't, your my child it scares me to say because I let you drift away, I call you some times. I wished you coUld have stayed with me grown within me, but it's over now and it has been for years, if I never cared why am I still in tears why is leting go of you my pain, I'm in menel rain cant get you out of my brain.

Help me baby let me know your with me, let me see an image of your face let me got lost in your embrase, I knew you were a boy, even brought you a little toy, you were so small, but I couldn't look at you nore hold you nothing can see me through the pain of giving up on you.
I buryed you in my garden, you were a human, a life I should have never taken, I know you didn't see me looking at you, that one little look was enough to wright your book.
you will always be mine sory I cant reverse time, sory you had to be my one ond only crime.
I hope one sweet day I will hold you again, please stop my rain be my sunshine litle heart that should have remaind mine.
My only wish is to reverse time