Contemplatin a Dark Sitchation

With each step I take
knowin how I was/am raised
bringing about da wrong fruit,
I might just end up
spiritually insane!

Wonderin HOW a God
SO GREAT could EVER love me.
doubtin Him and myself
all the while but maybe
I'm blind, maybe I can't see that...
His love is truly UNCONDITIONAL;
and it's all for me!

This dark place I'm in, I
can see the light at the end.
Just can't reach it yet cuz
I'm stuck here in dis mess.

The light bein a totally
new dimension in Christ,
my darkness being rebellious,
triflin and just sick of life!

Suicidal thoughts mixed
with binging anxiety overwhelms
me and I stop. Try
to breathe only to find that
oxygen itself has betrayed me.

Just how do I go on?
It ain't a act of "trying"
no more; it's time to "do" and
start to take action!

Lord God, YOU have heard
my cry, my plea. How could
I EVER survive without Thee?
When times of turmoil and despair
come upon me, I know to call on You
cuz You da ONLY ONE to set me free!