It's been two years

It's been two long years
and I've covered it with
fake nonchalance and ignorance
sweet tender bliss

I see you
playing
and it all floods back

I see you
laughing
and it all floods back

I want not to care
yet it enters my mind
when you left, airdrie bound
when you left me behind

I'd love to see you again
walk in peace like before
except it'd be different this time
I'd offer you more

It's been two damn years
and I've covered it with
fake nonchalance and ignorance
sweet tender bliss

and I see you there
smiling
and like a flood
it comes back

and I see your glance
brief
and like a flood
it comes back

I was confused, mislead
I feel I left you out
I'm sorry, I am
and all this time throughout

I've regretted
remorsed
slapped myself in the face

I was never a boyfriend
I was a selfish disgrace

It's been two fucking years
full of forgetting my mess
fake nonchalance and ignorance
makin' no damn progress

It's been two fucking years
since I tried to forget
the selfless way
our souls were met

Let me try again