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Self-Inflicted Pain

I have no idea why I almost cried tonight;
I guess it's just the fact
That I finally realized it:
He's never gonna like me,
And I should give up on him,
And that no one likes me,
And they never will.
So, Ben, I'm done with you.
I know you didn't mean it,
But you've caused me so much pain,
In just this night,
This huge sadness that won't go away.
And Brandon,
It was random,
Just taking a whack at someone new;
It didn't work,
And now I just hurt.
I feel worthless,
And so, so confused.
I feel like crying again,
And it's so unlike me.
I'm just gonna sleep,
And I hope I won't cry
About all the hurt
I caused for myself.

Author notes

I wrote this around 11 or 12 o'clock last night(march 20th), it really happened. I never actually cried, but I almost did, though at one point there were tears in my eyes. I'm still sad, it's been bothering all day...I just hope my dad doesn't notice. I don't want to explain!

Can you feel the sadness? I sure can. Derrgg.

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Comments


  • skipeople
    April 5, 2008

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    Well, it is nice to get your feelings out this way. I am just like you, I always seem to link my problems back towards myself, I take all the blame. It can pile up though, so just remember that it isn't always your fualt. I try not to blame others, so I just think of how most things happen after many mistakes made by multiple people. You can never just blame one person.

    Anywho, I hope you are feeling better now. You are still young, don't let this "love" mess with your head. Don't let teen crushes reck your life.

    Nice write, so true and raw.
    Ashley

  • emma1703
    March 22, 2008

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    Very well written poem! I liked this poem. It was written very weel

    language: 4, rhythm: 4, subject: 4, tone: 4, form: 4.