I know I’m not beautiful
I know I’m not worthy in your eyes
but that gives you no right
no right at all
to sit there and ignore me
no RIGHT!
I did nothing wrong
please stop hurting me
please stop hurting me
please stop hurting me
please stop hurting me
you’re killing me
and I can do nothing
nothing at all
to stop it
I come back
time and time again
to watch you abuse me
to listen
to you killing me
suffocating me
and I can do nothing
I do nothing
about it
please stop hurting me
please stop hurting me
please stop hurting me
please stop hurting me
you’re feasting
on my naïveté
you’re feeding
on my pain
you’re getting off
on the fact that I cry
all because of you
[but for me as well
and all that I’ve lost
all that I lost
when I said those
god forsaken
words]
{I
give
up}
please stop hurting me
please stop hurting me
please stop hurting me
please stop hurting me
maybe
if I whisper it
long enough
maybe
if I act
good enough
it will stop
the pain will stop
but it won’t, will it?
it
the pain
will never stop
not even in death
there is no escape
I must suffer
{suffer and bleed
PAY for your crime}
what crime?
what did I do wrong this time?
what did I say?
{you love the things
I say I’ll do
the way I hurt myself again
just to get back at you}
are you getting off on my pain
alex?
do you laugh
when you know I’m crying?
does your heart sing
when you know mine drops
and aches?
I hope so
I hope this-
my pain-
makes you happy
‘cause it’s going to be the end of me
[stop being dramatic
stop acting like Chelsea
I hate your actions
not you]
no
you hate me
or else you would not treat me
this way
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Oh look i thought this is where you go latley. Anywho. You want to know why i ignored you. Because you said i couldnt do it. Anything i do supposedly hurtful to you is justified.
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i KNOW why you're ignoring me
that just doesn't make it hurt any less
and, no, it may be justifiab;e to you, but i will NEVER understand why you continually hurt me -
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I dont hurt you. You may think, but im trying to forget you, get over you. This is my way of doing it. Deal with it.
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you DO hurt me
living in denial doesn't make it true -
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I dont have to live in denial, I know the truth
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and what truth is that?
that you don't hurt me?
how would u even know, u pay not enough attention to know, you care not enough to know
so don't fucking say you know SHIT -
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Gettign pissed?
your problem not mine
1. i noticed, look at your right leg?
saw at least 11.
And i dontpay atention because of what you fucking did to me, so i vowed, that im going to be and ass for the rest of my hish school career to you.
SO deal with it. got it? -
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1. but did u see that theyre not that bad?
and did u see the word FREAK? look carefully, it's there
i tried to make that up! i tried to fix that!
and no i don't get it, okay?
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No i didnt because they were, any is bad.
No i didnt. all i saw was --------------
and you hurt me bad and this is my way of coping like you cutting is yours. So stop being a hypocrite -
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okay, i'll conceed on that point, that any is bad enough
look at my shin, it says FREAK
i KNOW i hurt you
and i tried to fix that, i tried to make it better and oyu didn't let me
and i quit cutting 13 days ago, okay?a dn i'm not going to cut for 6 months -
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6 months eh>
Ok im going to do my thing that ive been doing for 6 months -
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and what would that be?
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.....thatswhat it would be.
Goodbye for 6 months cassie. -
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so if i cut you'll talk to me?
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nope. Your stopping for 6 months to stop cutting, im stoping tlaking to you, to get oevr you. and if you cut, gratz you cut, but im not flawing my 6 months because yours falls and tumbles
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it's not going to work, just to let you know
and i thought you were over me, isn't that what u said, alex? that you were already over me?
but whatever
whatever makes you happy, alex....i just want you to be happy.... -
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Stop acting like your the full victim.
Why because your not,
Dont try to act all sad and innocent,
I know that your 5 foot tall self can stand foryourself, and means more than that,
your not guilt tripping me into anyything.
Stop trying.
I had a consious once before dealing wiht you.
but now?
I dont have one. so i dont care. -
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i don't act like i'm the full victim
i know i hurt you
but i also think i don't deserve all the shit you're giving me
honey, i may only be 5 foot but i'm more mature than you'll ever be
i'm not trying to guilt trip you into anything, just trying to get you to understand, which you refuse to do
you have a concious, whether you want to admit it or not -
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you do act like the full victim, dont lie.
im not giving you any, your the one that does it all, im just trying to live my life.
And no your not, theres alot of things that you have to know to get to where im at.
I refuse to do because i dont care.
and no i dont, not with you. -
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u hate me
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Yes. yes i do.
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it wasn't a question
you've hated me for awhile -
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That i have.
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again, it wasn't a question
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i like it keep it up
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thanks
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I like this
really long, but I think it's good, lot of agnst
yeah agnst!!!!!! very emotional, in your face! like ( " bitch, please!" ) lol. chao!
April 29, 2008