Verdict ( written October 3rd 2006)

Is that the question or the verdict
They say,
With quivering uncertainty

With fingers crossed
and hopeful pray'n
I hope the outcome is not as grusome as they read

Shooting quick glances towards you
across the jury of my haters

Hoping everything turns out okay...
But I think,
I should know better than that

The sentence is read once more
And it's more,
than enough,
for me


I'm turning all shades of white
paler than the whitest moonlight

At the site of you
crying your heart out on the courtroom floor

I wanna shout
"I didn't mean it!"

Whisper a fast "I'm sorry"
And get outa here

You think this doesn't hurt me do you?
Well I can show you the scars
If you want me to

Yoy just
don't
under-
stand

That I have been dying
Since the first time I meant your eyes

And I've been crying
Since you looked away from me
for the last time

I wish you could here me
Locked up inside my mind


All these thoughts in here
Are of you
And of
happier times

Like the first time our lips meant

The first time we made love

The first time I said
this was forever true
this was forever true