9 minute quickwrite

there is nothing when I see red
blood spilling from my leg
but I wish it was my head
there is nothing when I see red
when I see red
when I see red

There's just this feeling I can not explain
It's not something
I can just wash off in the rain
I'm sitting in the shower
drenched to the bone
and no matter how hard it gets
there's still no ringing on my phone

It's like
you're not even there
It's just like
you don't even care
when you sit behind me
messing with my hair
it's like I feel nothing
just like you're not there
and it's like
when your touch me softly
somethings always missing
I feel nothing
even when we're kissing
And it's like
I don't understand
and it's like
no one can give me what I demand



And I can't even hear my self scream
I can't even feel it
when I breath
I'm the only one here
Wiping away all the tears
even after all of these years
I just can't seem conquer my fears
I’m the voice that nobody hears
I’m just the plague
that nobody nears

I sit alone
I can hear everyone elses cheers
I sit alone
cause I own all the jeers
I sit alone
as the last happiness inside
disappears