I Live For

i thought
oh how i thought
and maybe
maybe i should quit thinking
because i never seem
to think anything through
never seem to think anything right
maybe
maybe
i should stop being
maybe
i should stop
everything
i am
and ever will be
but i won't quit
i can't quit
i live for me
and i live for you
and i live for all the children
that never got to be
[i live for you
Baby Elizebeth
and sissy's nameless child
i live for you
JD
who is alive
but will never get the chance
to really live
i live for you
adoptive mother
who cannot live without the pain
i live for you
biological mother
who died without knowing
who i would become
or who any of her children
would become
i live for you
Ashley
who got screwed over with life
who i've never met
but i know is my sister
i live for you
tiny baby
that should have been
little Damian
or Mariska
baby
that should have been mine
and his
i live for you
woman in a third world country
who does not get the chance to live
because the men have all the control]
back to the topic
because i seem to have strayed
i thought
we would last forever
i thought
we would be
everything
i needed
i thought
oh how i thought
we would last forever
i loved you
i LOVE you
but you'll never believe me