How do you loose
yourself?
When exactly does
that happen?
When you pass
by the mirror,
and realize,
you cant see her
anymore?
When you
don't recognize
yourself?
That person,
you use to be.
the person that,
smiled so bright,
and laughed so honestly.
The one that was happy
for today,and always
kept it together.
The one that Liked
what she saw
looking back at her.
Did you really
know her at all?
Did she ever,
really, know you?
Does she know
who you've become,
and what you've
turned into?
A metamorphosis,
unseen by others,
but I can see it
clearly,
Where did she go?
What caused her to leave?
Is she still somewhere
inside of me?
There will come
a day,
when I'll have
the strength,
to reach inside
and find her.
I will be happy
to see her smiling
face, and I'll break
those ties that bind her
I'll beg of her,
to never again
retreat and leave
me here alone.
For life is far
too hard for me
when,
I cant see her anymore.
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Author notes
I wrote this today to give to my therapist...lol...true though, she doesn't know who I use to be, and looks at me funny when I tell her that I don't recognize myself anymore...I thought this might shed some light on it for her.
The last line, am pondering changing it to "I cant see Me anymore" what do you think?
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To thy owe self be true
Its hard to see ourselfs when we are in the middle of change. The reflect seems distorted. Yet once we walk through the thershold we find there is really nothing to fear. The barometer of experience is not the situation endured but rather the opportunity it creates.
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Noble
what a beautiful comment! Thank you so much, I absolutely love "The barometer of experience is not the situation endured but rather the opportunity it creates" that was so beautifully put and true. Thank you again for reading!
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This is very sad..
And I'm so sorry too. This poem is deep and meaningful. It's full of thought and your inner self.
As for the question: "Her" is good because it leads to reader pondering, but of course "I" explains the poem and makes the ending a bit more confusing. But in a way it isn't confusing. Either one is good. It all depends to you!
Great job!
Hope.
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Courage
thank you so much for stopping by to read and commenting! It is greatly appreciated! It is sad though, it is something that I deal with everyday, and it doesn't get easier, but I am faithful that the day i spoke of in the poem will come and I will be able to see her again! thanks again for stopping by!!
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Ywa, like the line change. I have been thinking these thoughts myself lately......who are we really? I dont remember setting out to change
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ladydwarf
Hey there and thank you so much for stopping by and reading this poem! I agree, I don't remember setting out to change either, I think it happens whether we want it to or not and more often its our minds that change us I think. Thanks again for stopping by and for the comment.
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lol. ur author's note explained this piece percectly. i should probably see a therapist myself every now and then, but im too stubborn. i have felt exactly the same way. because i have changed and sometimes i wish i haven't.
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Grace
Hey there, thank you so much for stopping by and reading! I think that therapy is a great thing...but I didn't do it until I hit bottom. It is a great way to get all of your feelings out and you actually do feel better walking out then you do walking in thats for sure. I am sorry that you can relate, if you ever want to talk, I'm around more often than not
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hey ginger
it seemed this was written by someone in therapy, very intropective and well done, well written...but god, you'd think the writer was some ulgy thing, i think most women would be pretty happy to see that face looking back at them.
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Thanks so much for your wonderful compliments, and for stopping by to read. The truth is I was very happy when I saw that girl in the picture looking back at me, but my present state of mind has warped my sight, and my ability to be happy, thus making her a thing of the past (if that makes sense). I appreciate you coming by, and thank you again for the great comment.
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hey der lady
LoL well this is definitely something that I can say that I know a little bit about...disappearing from yourself and not even knowing it until ya happen to walk by a mirror and wonder what the hell is that looking back at what has replaced the image that you have of yourself in your head, then that gets replaced by your original normal thought of yourself. Doing psychological damage to yourself and either hurting or increasing your chances or realizing something is wrong and needs fixing or else you just get even more lost. As for the poem I think that you're at the point in writing where you could make this decision all by your lonesome and I'm confident it would be the right one. But I'll answer anyways, you could leave it, this is a good way of expressing ones emotions. through anothers eyes. Or you could change the ending, but then I would feel that you could be confusing people, or you could do it that way and just hope that your readers are smart or aware enough to notice the subtle message, which would also express that emotion in another way, of feeling lost. That is if you changed the last line to "me" instead of leaving it. I think you should change it. but of course this decision is yours sugarplum LoL. Good luck, thanks for sharing and hope to hear from ya soon
TTYSoon
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Hey there Marcus!
Thanks so much for stopping by and reading, I know your a busy guy. I missed hearing from you on the last couple I wrote; and was hoping that you would come by and check it out, glad you did.
Thank you too, for your insight, and as always, your input is appreciated! I gave this to my therapist and she said that she has a much clearer picture of what I was talking about, so that is a definite plus.
I think that far too often our issues skew our view of ourselves, and no one seems to notice but us...sad really, but I do have faith in myself to a certain extent, and I want to find her again, so I think that I may have already fought part of the battle.
Thanks again, and as always, its good to hear from you!
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We are so most often caught up with indentities and impressions that people have on us and we on ourselves..and you have brought in this thought so explicitly and wonderfully..I guess once we knock down these thoughts we would surely begin to find a true (me/you)..I loved the uplifting thought you bring in here..Thanks for sharing Gingerhall...I am as always impressed with your unrestrained expressive writing..
By the way the Picture looks awesome..you look more The Humble Cleopatra rather than the proud one..and i love to see the humbleness
RhythmDivine
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Thank you Rythm
Thank you so much for the very gracious comment! I am so glad to hear that you liked it, and I am so appreciative of your kindness. Your compliments are too kind, I am honored that you came by and took the time to read...Thank you!
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My heart aches for you.
I can understand what you're fighting. I went through a period when I lost myself for a time. My reasons were due to substance abuse as a result of a broken heart. The worst of it was I didn't want to find myself for a long time. Realizing you're missing is the first step. Wanting to find yourself is the second step. After that it's never simple, or at least it wasn't for me. I wish only the best for you. I will pray that you find the true you. Maybe the true you is a combination of who you were and who you've become. I love the person I perceive you to be. It's difficult for me to imagine you being a better person than you already seem to be. As usual it has stirred my emotions severly just thinking of your struggles. I think her is fitting. It restates that you are now you and not the me you used to be. I wouldn't change it personally. I will say one more time I like the you I know but I wish you to find happiness by finding yourself.
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Brian
you are so kind! I am sorry to hear that you have dealt with this as well, but you have come out of it a beautiful person, and that gives me hope.
I think your right on with the combination...every time I jump one of these hurdles it leaves something with me, thats not necessarily bad, so that is a positive. I am sure that it will be a long row to hoe, so to speak, but with the support I gain in here, how can I go wrong
You are insightful, and a positive voice, in my negative world, and for that, I have to say, from the bottom of my heart...THANK YOU!
As always your input is appreciated, I think your right as well, that makes two to keep it as it is, and that is how it will stay
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I like her
In answer to your question I think using the word her writes from the perspective you hold now and creates an implied distance for the reader.
As you say a word over and over it loses meaning just like a poem does to the author after a while. The truth is that the last line in its distance was a great wrap up and finalization.
As always you are well expressed with unique form I would not change it at all. Great picture too. =)
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Enoq
I happen to think he's a pretty swell guy too!
Thank you for the wonderful comment! I really appreciate your input; I have to say I think I like it better this way too.
You are too kind, thank you for your wonderful compliments!!!
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I've been feeling the same way lately. It's strange when you start realizing you've become someone else. You can't remember changing, and until you notice you don't feel any different, but once you notice it's like being lost. Because if you don't know who you are how can you feel comfortable in your own skin.
I hope you can find yourself, or get to know the new you soon! Keep up the great work
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you hit the nail on the head
your absolutely right! I am sorry to hear that you have been feeling the same way. I too hope for not only me but yourself as well that we can muster the strength to at least look for them (if that makes sense). Thank you for the understanding comment!
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This is a very sad poem,but its also subtle and it doesn`t reek of self loathing,its merely asking (politely and sincerely)a question to oneself,how do you lose yourself,why did it happen,how can it happen,where did it happen,what caused it to happen?.....i wish, above everything,that i knew.
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Rhetorica
Thank so much for the great comment, you got the gist of it perfectly! I wish I knew too! Thank you so much for your kindness, and for stopping by to read this, it means a lot to me.
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