Cold

The snow surrounds me
Choking me
Hating me
Just like you did
I fall within a freezing fire
My own bleeding sacrifice
Rusting ice
Your murder of my soul makes me numb
I cannot feel what is within me
You bruised the beautiful woman I once was
And killed within what was to become
And then some
God help me
You have taken from me
What I thought I would never lose
But from each and every bruise
I can feel your desire to choose
Between me and her
So what will it be?
Can you even hear me?

Wait
I forgot I was frozen underneath this
Hatred
You shoveled on top of me
And now I am so dirty
So filthy
What a waste
To try to talk to you about this
Am I really that much of a disgrace?
Well
Yeah my hair is a mess
But that’s only because
You
Made it that way
You make me selfish, you make me want more
You beat me down, call me a little whore
Keep me awake until half past four
Now I’m sore
Which
Makes me think that
Maybe we should stop
But you won’t let me just walk away
You tell me you have so much left to say
I pull away but
You beg me to stay
Your love is killing me with its hatred
I cling to you but you
Push me away instead
Does it really surprise you I wish I was dead?

Can you see her in my eyes?
Am I your dirty little puppet in disguise?
I cannot believe your lies
Though it hurts me to say
That there is so much truth within them
That they have begun to decay
And you only want me to play
Your foolish games
So you can say you have won
Over me
But I’m not done

I’m tired of fighting with you, it’s starting to become
A dead emotion, a poison to make me numb
And it works, I can’t feel you
When you lay beside me at night
I can only hear us fight
Why don’t you tell me what to do
To make this right
According to you, this is all my fault
Even though I am the victim in your sick assault
No matter what you do to me, you always win me over
I am your dying rose, your withered four leaf clover
I can see the grin on your face when you know
You’ve hurt me, but you try not to let it show
You tell me you’re sorry, but that’s a straight out lie
You would say anything, just to watch me wither and die

Why don’t you go off and tell her
That you hurt me everyday
Why don’t you go off and tell her
You are going to use her anyway
Why don’t you go off and tell her
You don’t have to say goodbye
Because today’s the day I’m letting you go
Don’t ever ask me why
Goodbye