I want to kill myself.
Back in middle school,
these thoughts scared the hell out of me.
Now, suicidal thendencies are so common.
I wish for death a few times a week.
The scary part is,
knowing when the thoughts are real.
Believe me, they're real.
I'm not saying that I'll do it,
but that doesn't mean I don't want to.
I so want to.
Like other times, this phase will pass.
I'll eventually see life in a new way
and suicide will be an after thought.
It always is.
But for the time being,
I'll cry myself to sleep and wish I had a gun.
I'll take my meds with a craving to take more.
I'll be lost in thought
and not concentrate on one thing.
It sucks, I'll admit, but I'm used to it.
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really good i thought....i can really relate. only thing i would change is the cry myelf to sleep part, but thats probably just because i don't really relate to that part. good piece
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It doesn't suck.
I like it. It reminds me of myself when I was in highschool and jr. high. I love the part about the "meds." I like how you used what a therapist would call them and how you craved to take more. -
Hey ski I love your picture by the way .You're such a beautiful young lady and you'd move on with your life.I know that it's not easy to stop thinking about suicide .But what is suicide ? You'll cut yourself and you'd be gone .You'll die ,rot ,turn into ashes ...forgotten .So why do this ? I know that you feel bad ,that nothing else matters ,but find another way to kill the pain.Don't kill yourself .Sometimes I think about death .Ok not sometimes but a lot of times .I don't want to die I'm too young .And it's not worth dying when you're only 17 .
And as sb who writes dark poetry and who has suffered in the past I'm saying don't do it .For some reason to commit suicide is some kind of trend and people think it's something normal to cut or whatever .So instead of thinking of suicide think about all the beautiful things you can do in life.LIFE ISN'T BEAUTIFUL and so what .You can make it better .Just remember one thing .If you came to this life ,that was for a reason .And that reason isn't to die at a very young age. So cheer up and say goodbye to death .
~feb~
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don't kill yourself it's not worth it don't bother to even entertain the thought. you don't really want to otherwise you would've already taken your life. thoughts of suicide just make the terrible side of the world a little more bearable. it's an escape a fairytale it's your imagination making the dark areas even darker. sometimes life is so dull it makes it a little more interesting. suicide isn't a phase it's always going to be with you you just have to decide how much the thoughts are going to affect you. it's healthy to cry it means you feel something it means you aren't dead inside it means you hurt because you believe in something better. if you believe in something better why would you entertain a terrible thing it just perpetuates the things you want to throw away. life is what you make of it and if you believe in something better if you want something better you won't accept suicide or depression as an answer to anything because it's not an answer to anything it's an escape from reality. i can't say much because it's something i've dealt with all my life and i can't say i'm cured but i love people and if i love anything that's worth living for
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