A genuine recovering alcoholic
who was my friend
told me this
at a group therapy session last year
I have become unemotional Mikey,
I need to cry
I need to laugh
I need to FEEL
but I can`t anymore
Scientists, doctors
the health service,
the pharmaceutical industry
and the government
made a predetemined decision
based on my financial status
to pump my body full of CHEAP drugs
to prevent my illnesses from killing me
because they cannot afford
to carry out proper examinations
to determine the exact state of my health
but they dont seem to care about human ethics
I used to want to die
now I dont want to live or die
Is it fair to exist solely for the benefit of others?
Makes me want to start drinking again Mikey.....
He died today ( 25/02/09 )
on the street
drinking vodka
by himself
The police said he was dead on arrival
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Hey Rhet,
This struck me. Its poignant and true. I'm sorry about your friend, but i know how that is. Somehow the depth of the feeling in his words echoed something i'm quite familiar with. Its a difficult thing to be in a sort of limbo with once life. Being played like a puppet and finding no relief is as painful as being beaten. The 4th stanza haunts for some reason. I can't offer much of a critic, but i have to say this poem really did hit me and I'm glad to have stumble upon it.
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hey iphios,thank you, he was a highly intelligent person,thats what automatically attracted me to him,it hurts that hes gone but i guess(idk) he is more at peace. he was a friend but not a close friend but i wish he had been..its difficult for me to reply to comments on this poem because i dont fully understand it myself,its simply my recollection of his words although i cant recall exactly what he said..its a poem where the comments i have received have helped me to understand it more
ive read the fourth stanza again,i knew it didnt sound quite right so i replaced "purely for the benefit of others" to "solely for the benefit of others"..do you think thats better as i think its a great stanza(i can say that because i didnt really write it)
thanks iphios,
this reply is for Windhover also,
sorry wind,i just couldnt think of how to respond to your comment until now
bye rhet
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Salute
Very poignant R. and it touches (for whatever reasons) on the real dilemma, not just of the alcoholic, but of depressives too- so you're reaching a lot of creatives with this. I'm sorry about your friend but in some ways I salute him. I rarely do this but I wrote a poem a long time ago on this subject called 'It's Poery' . It's long but I think you might like it in light of what you've written. It's at http://sharepoetry.com/poem/9251 My Best to you and your friend. >W< -
Very well expressed. So sad but true about many alcoholics and mentally ill people, they become zombies after doctor's treatment. Stuffed with pills, disability and no hope for a better life. All for the benefits mafia ran by doctor's and medicine industry. And the public seems too numb to see it and fight for change. So sad and you depicted it very well here in your prose. Thanks for sharing and all the best to you rhetorica. - Johnny Wilson.
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hey Johnny,thank you for reading,commenting and understanding this poem even though i could never fully understand him/it myself,perhaps i should`ve tried more to listen but i didnt and he`s dead and thats the way it is...
Changing the subject entirely,i watched Donnie Darko last night for the first time and i thought it was wonderful then i clicked on a random poem straight after and it was one of yours which i thought was an incredible coincidence especially when you take into the account the theme of the movie,just wondering if your nom de plume was inspired by that movie....sorry for my insensitivity but i had to change the subject, im fuckin` depressed..
see you later
rhet
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