the lush

while you can say i exaggerate everything
i see where it's all headed
i just admit the inevitable before it's time
it terrifies me, the anxiety is unbearable
i wallow in what i could have been
endless dreams of the waking
ideas that never come to fruition
conversations that never find their way
from my mouth to deaf ears
i've come up with a million ways
but i still can't stop anything
the world is spinning
i feel so ill so weak so tired and out of control
these people are making themselves sick
who are we trying to impress
lost on some country road
finding my way to pavements
motion lights traffic
a cold bed for my heavy body
stiletto stillness for thoughts unsteady
people screaming for me to come home
why'd they let me leave to begin with
i wed my regret she's my blushing bride
i'd never question your fidelity
only the truth you've buried deep inside
at what cost
a torturous existence