loves suicide by my-spoken-soul at Share Poetry

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When your dreams outshine the sun.. it’s crushing to have to watch as they fizzle out
Its humbling and humiliating all roll into one. Breath taking but not in that magical sense.
More like breathless, unable to move not caring if you do, sort of a soul suicide I guess maybe more of loves suicide.
Those deliberate actions taken to end my hearts very existence
Cutting through every inch of my being or whats left of it anyway. Standing in the middle of here & no where
Disillusioned & disgusted shamed and ashamed.. hating me for needing you.
That’s my fatal fault and yes I’ll swallow those pills bitter as they may be.. penalties for doing bad for the sake
of my own good.. How could I interpret it any other way

So now when I close my eyes..silence everything I know.. allow those ribbons in the sky to turn grim shades of grey
I’ll smile on the other side because through it all I was created to be one of the beautiful ones